My Alba

by Allen Ginsberg

  1. Now
  2. that
  3. I’ve
  4. wasted
  5. five
  6. years
  7. in
  8. Manhattan
  9. life
  10. decaying
  11. talent
  12. a
  13. blank

talking disconnected
patient and mental
sliderule and number
machine on a desk

                                        autographed triplicate
synopis and taxes
                                        obedient prompt
poorly paid

                                                                                                        stayed on the market
youth of my twenties
                                                                                                               fainted in offices
wept on typewriters

deceived multitudes
in vast conspiracies
deodorant battleships
serious business industry

every six weeks whoever
drank my blood bank
innocent evil now
part of my system

five years unhappy labor
22 to 27 working
not a dime in the bank
to show for it anyway

dawn breaks it’s only the sun
the East smokes O my bedroom
I am damned to Hell what
alarmclock is ringing